From 9b90953e3b376bd699d47ff546856a11a3d69253 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: 2weiEmu Date: Sat, 28 Dec 2024 02:21:57 +0100 Subject: [PATCH] added more to personal notes --- ...Some Notes on Being Honest with Myself - 27 or 28-12-2024.md | 2 +- 1 file changed, 1 insertion(+), 1 deletion(-) diff --git a/Notes - Self/Some Notes on Being Honest with Myself - 27 or 28-12-2024.md b/Notes - Self/Some Notes on Being Honest with Myself - 27 or 28-12-2024.md index bd47d26..f503ba3 100644 --- a/Notes - Self/Some Notes on Being Honest with Myself - 27 or 28-12-2024.md +++ b/Notes - Self/Some Notes on Being Honest with Myself - 27 or 28-12-2024.md @@ -1,5 +1,5 @@ I definitely have some major issues on being honest with myself and I also have a lot of issues with being like good to myself. My failings are not something that should be about taking pity on me, it should be my areas of improvement, they should be the things that give me direction, things that I should improve on, and here I want to establish a list for myself on things that I want to do in that direction as well, because I do want to improve myself and I want to be better. -Something that Nic said today: I don't judge other, but I do judge myself. I feel like that is something that I used to live more strictly by in the past - now, a lot of the time, I feel like a loud brute, I am aware that in a lot of ways I still may behave better than a lot of people but also in a lot of ways my standards have drifted - I shout a lot, sometimes I drink a lot, and I do boast about it sometimes like I am proud of it and that is not something that I should be doing at all. There is a lot of things to say here and honestly, I feel I had a lot more to spill earlier, and maybe here is a place that I should be honest more... and is some more of a log that I should be keeping but right now I am mainly tired... and I should be heading to sleep. And also Philip was giving me shit for being on my Laptop because I gave him shit for being on his Laptop because mom said that I shouldn't continue for that long, even though that is not me typically, when I say that I am going to bed I typically go to bed, it is typically Philip who stays on his laptop doing things. But ey - that is also something to discuss some other time, for now I think that I should be heading to sleep. For now, I also think, that also because of my dreams, I have a crush on Ruxi. I also think that, because of the experiences I had previously with her, that I blew that. Oh boy... I should review those... but I do think that I blew that... again partially because of those things up there but also more concrete criticisms. Well let's see. I will review that in the coming days... hopefully. If not - well let's see. Good night for now. I will try to come back to these notes. +Something that Nic said today: I don't judge other, but I do judge myself. I feel like that is something that I used to live more strictly by in the past - now, a lot of the time, I feel like a loud brute, I am aware that in a lot of ways I still may behave better than a lot of people but also in a lot of ways my standards have drifted - I shout a lot, sometimes I drink a lot, and I do boast about it sometimes like I am proud of it and that is not something that I should be doing at all. There is a lot of things to say here and honestly, I feel I had a lot more to spill earlier, and maybe here is a place that I should be honest more... and is some more of a log that I should be keeping but right now I am mainly tired... and I should be heading to sleep. And also Philip was giving me shit for being on my Laptop because I gave him shit for being on his Laptop because mom said that I shouldn't continue for that long, even though that is not me typically, when I say that I am going to bed I typically go to bed, it is typically Philip who stays on his laptop doing things. But ey - that is also something to discuss some other time, for now I think that I should be heading to sleep. For now, I also think, that also because of my dreams, I have a crush on Ruxi. I also think that, because of the experiences I had previously with her, that I blew that. Oh boy... I should review those... but I do think that I blew that... again partially because of those things up there but also more concrete criticisms. Well let's see. I will review that in the coming days... hopefully. If not - well let's see. Good night for now. I will try to come back to these notes. Also good progress on being honest with the crush thing. That is a bigger ish step than normal I feel, because I tried this before - didn't do stuff like that - well let's see. I really wanna come back to this. === End of Notes for 27-28/12/2024 (evening of 27th start of 28th) === \ No newline at end of file -- 2.54.0