From: 2weiEmu Date: Wed, 22 Jan 2025 00:44:10 +0000 (+0100) Subject: daily note X-Git-Url: https://git.saalbach.dev/?a=commitdiff_plain;h=b9241194d98734cdc309d04c10d0ebff9d64dc20;p=research-obsidian.git daily note --- diff --git a/.obsidian/workspace.json b/.obsidian/workspace.json index 8e70450..e3bd1c8 100644 --- a/.obsidian/workspace.json +++ b/.obsidian/workspace.json @@ -165,8 +165,8 @@ }, "active": "17352ce3bf8c92f2", "lastOpenFiles": [ - "Daily/19-01-2025.md", "Daily/22-01-2025.md", + "Daily/19-01-2025.md", "Daily/16-01-2025.md", "Pasted image 20250103161642.png", "Daily", diff --git a/Daily/22-01-2025.md b/Daily/22-01-2025.md index e69de29..db612df 100644 --- a/Daily/22-01-2025.md +++ b/Daily/22-01-2025.md @@ -0,0 +1,6 @@ +I am writing this early in the morning, so basically I am writing this about yesterday, and I wanna be brutally honest with myself. So honestly would it be a good idea to have some encryption on this? well yes technically you want that on everything, but I digress, either way it's my feelings and these are not something to be ashamed of. But I would just like to say that, I like today, I also fucked some things up and it sure wasn't the greatest day in the time of being alive- but some cute things happened today, and some things that I would also just like to talk about. Especially ruxi, yea man here goes hoping that no one finds this. actually you know, fuck it if people find it. These is how I feel, and sure I might not feel these things in a rational way, I get attached quickly - that is who I am, and fuck you. I know this information isn't *always* good to act on, but at the same time, I am always way too passive even if a girl likes me. That being sad, I don't really know when a girl likes me, that is why a lot of the girls that I have had anything with, typically told me. Well, the 2 girls, with another like 1 or 2 where I had theories, but I feel like maybe they were already being on the more overt end. Either way im a fucking bitch about this kinda shit. I don't know how to read other people to save my life, so typically my assumptions are quite innocent and then I suffer quietly about my own feelings about that person. Yea sounds a bit pathetic right about now doesn't it? heh, I think I have a friend that would have that feeling, and you know what he is completely based and right, and he went for it, and he seems to be incredibly happy with his girl. +But either way, I am past the point again, I sure do love going on tangents, but there is a lot to expand on here. The main thing that I wanted to mention right now is very simple, a very small thing, but at the same time kinda big. It's just one feeling that I wanted to describe. Me being sad when Ruxi said she would leave early at 9:00 instead of watching with us, as well as me being happy when she A. turned out to be there in the first place, noticably, thank you very much you bitch. B. just stayed past the 9:00pm and we walked home with her, or I did mostly at least. Were were at diana's place and I had to take the turn to my house early - otherwise I feel like that would have been weird, and I am not qutie sure why, I mean I have a reason I guess to go on, but at the same time not really. Idk, I think Boran might have followed her all the way home, same as Mateo. That is okay, that is kinda the direction that Mateo has to go, and he is on a bike those 5 minutes that he would need extra would not really make a difference, and I mean it kinda is the same for Boran he isn't too far away, but at the same time idk man +Either way, yea, Idk - ok fuck it, honest agian me ass, being dumb and fucking retarded about the dumbest shit - and probably thinking too much about this, and being conspiratorial and shit +(i will continue in a sec but I just wanted to say that to an extent his has to seem like the ramblings of a schizo, at least a bit, but right now im just letting my thoughts out, and they aren't always nicely formatted, well in my head they are but I don't type that fast yet.) + +ok i might continue in the morning. Good night. It's too late for this. \ No newline at end of file